I can remember so many times when I have let resistance beat me, I've missed great surfs, let friends down, I've let my family down, and it's has caused me all sorts of grief over the years, but mostly, not being assertive enough when I really should have spoken out, or accepted situations when I should have stood up and been counted, whatever the consequences; I'd probably avoided a shit load of head aches.
This book was part of the 'Getting Booked' series on The HKT Podcast with Matt MacDuff where they suggest a book, read it over the next month and then discuss; like a book club through a podcast, It's so good. I read it the book and it has really had a personal impact. Primarily it's made me more self aware of my own resistance to do doing things. Like washing the dishes after work, I now just get them done right after eating, and it feels better. Or tidying my clothes away to stop annoying my poor wife, I feel less untidy.
In terms of of riding my bike, resistance doesn't seem to affect me at all. This week I've been getting changed at work, racing home and riding the 30 minutes before dark. That window of light is like a gift and it gets me proper excited for riding. Even last night, with a fresh and cold East wind, I couldn't resist a few laps in the scattering of snow left on our hill. I've ridden 5 out of 6 days this past week, with the past weekend full of fun. I'm so stoked on riding bikes right now but is this because my resistance toward surfing has grown over the last few months.
I have a beautiful quiver of boards from a whole bunch of great shapers, a new winter wetsuit, the swells have been pumping but so have the crowds. My resistance to surfing has so much to do with this 'Covid Crowd' right now. The lockdown madness of travelling surfers, overcrowded spots and the fact there have been a lot of south coast swells, I really haven't felt like getting involved. All I have heard from people is negativity and I want no part of it right now. As I write this I can hear my resistance to surfing, but also an overwhelming desire to ride my bike. One thing I know for sure is that my next surf will be because it feels right, not because I feel negative or putting pressure myself about not surfing, which I still haven't worked out why I do this. As Matt Johnson says in Big Wednesday, when asked if he's surfing much; 'Nah, just when its necessary'.
I've been reflecting on why I'm riding so much and this lack of resistance towards heading out on a cold evening post work. It's because I am enjoying the experience 100%, I'm progressing, learning new skills, putting my coaching day to real practice, sessioning trails over and over, and my stoke level is very high right now. It's also because I began writing a book last year called 'Trail Head' and the journey is very much in the present, a learning experience, put simply, I want to record it all, so I ride, I experience, I reflect, I take notes, and I write.
Don't get me wrong winter has seen resistance hit my writing hard. Dark nights, a physical job and the need to just hit the sofa and watch Netflix has been a real, and easy submission some nights. But then, I snap out of it, aware that I have a massive task ahead of me; but a task that I am enjoying so much. This book is a personal challenge, it's for me, and if I get to hand over a copy to my Mum, that will do me just fine. If I have a copy on my book shelf that I can look at and know that I finished it, it's a personal success, and resistance well and truly lost. At the very least, once it's complete it will be on Kindle, or I'll have a shit load of articles I could send to magazines or online journals, maybe a series of blogs, or maybe, just maybe, it will be printed exactly how I want it to be, look how I want it to look and I might sell a few. But none of that will happen if I don't ride my bike.
I'm sitting here now with the winding gusting 60mph outside, and I'm pondering my next ride not surf, but please don't misunderstand me, I love surfing, I am a surfer. But I'm looking forward to lock down ending and some travel in my new van, a road trip or two, with my bikes, some friends, and some trails and some beers. Resistance plays has no part in my riding, enjoyment has fully taken hold and this past year few winter months has just been epic, and strangely I have gone no further than a 5 mile radius from my house.
Maybe that's what beating resistance needs, a massive dose of Stoke and it will disappear for ever. It's easy, get a bike.